Sometimes I feel like some of my issues could be solved by drawing more. I could somehow get more people interested in my stuff, get some commissions, fill out my time, get better somehow in art, maybe improve my mood.
But then I try to draw anything but nothing comes out. It feels draining to try to draw something, only to stare at an empty screen trying to figure out what to draw. Coupled with the fact that I don’t really feel anything about what I draw, makes it harder to get started drawing.
I tried to do quests to see if I could do at least one drawing a day, but I find that I am spending less and less effort in trying to make panels and that I’m running out of things to fill out the story with.
And it’s beginning to feel more and more empty, doing the quest. I don’t mind doing it, but I am not feeling anything from it.
At times I feel like I should perhaps restart my parteon or something to try to incentivize myself, but I feel bad about setting up something like that. Like as if I’m lying.
I just don’t know, and trying to do something about it feels exhausting and tiresome.